I know it wouldn’t ever last, but what I really want, even if just for a couple months, is to go to work and have that work be so creatively fulfilling and monetarily substantial, that that is all I have to do. I’d leave at the end of the day feeling satisfied with how I spent my time, and what I contributed or created during those eight to twelve hours. I’d come home happy and I’d be able to really relax, because my work would truly be done.
I FEEL THIS
Anonymous asked: I am going through thee hardest time in my life right now: i.e. death, court, school, serious health issues, shitty living situation, etc. I have forgotten how to live life and there's a part of me that doesn't even know if it's worth doing so anymore. How do I keep perspective/ get through this?
I feel this, I really have been there. 3.5 years ago was my rock bottom (in a lot of the ways you listed) and the bad things didn’t seem to stop coming. When it seemed like life was dragging me through it, scrapping my knees on the bottom floor, I found it so helpful.. even in hindsight to just keep charging. You can have your mental meltdowns but you as a person cannot melt.
It DOES get better, i swear. Sometimes it take awhile.. I don’t think I found a break for a year.. and even then it was only manageable.. but it really does get easier. Let your tunnel vision take over, and for a second, instead of concentrating on your hopes and dreams just concentrate on surviving.. and don’t forget to reward yourself for doing so throughout the process.. because that is success too.